Don't Dream It, Be It

I typically try to steer away from completely personal blogs, but my life is getting a bit strange these days, and im noticing that is becoming a trend in many of my friends lives as well. I always say "write what you feel," so im going to do just that.

"Follow your dreams; Dont dream it, be it; Dream on".. these are common phrases about going after your dreams. Reaching for the stars and going for broke. But how many people out there actually know what their dreams are? Having lived in New York and Los Angeles in the past few years, I've met a good amount of dream weavers. It is an astonishing notion that there are so many people in this world who are going after their dreams. Even more astonishing are the people who have dreams, but who never get the chance or opportunity to pursue them. Yet something that I havent noticed is as prevalent are those who dont know which dream they want to follow, let alone those who even know if they have a dream at all.

I have recently decided to leave my job. It was a fairly premature decision on my part, some may say even pretty reckless. It was a decision that i knew needed to be made at the time. I could hear my life talking to me, telling me that it was time to make a drastic and positive change in my life. The problem with this change is that i have no direction to follow, no dream to carry out.

So my frustration is getting larger and larger as i sit and ponder about the decision i made. I also keep noticing the gloms of people that actually have themselves figured out and i find myself getting jealous of these people. Is that wrong? Is it wrong to be jealous of people with direction? Why do all my close friends know who they are and who they want to be? A cartoonist, designer, stylist, make-up artist, actors, actresses, musicians and even drag queens. They all have a vision for themselves and continue on their life paths towards greatness. And still i see myslef thinking of the awesome things i want do but have no outlet to be able express them. Its the most uncomfortable feeling ive had in a long time.

So im at this forced point in my life to figure myself out. To try and discover myself, all while trying to find a job that allows me to progress in finding my true path. I continue to try and place a smile on my face knowing that this was what i needed to do for my own personal reasons and that this will all work itself out in the near future. I ask, without trying to sound like a complete hypocrite, that all of you readers and those that readers will explain this column to will strive to find the positive in yourself. Look for who you really want to be and go for it. Even though i am scared and nervous about going through all of this, i would rather clear my life of professional obstacles and gain my true calling in life. Listen to your life and dont be afraid of it. If you think that your life will be complete without working for it, or that things will just come your way without any commitment in yourself, dream on.